It’s a question I have been thinking for a long time. It’s really common for me to analyze the reasons behind my desire, because I do introspective thinking a lot. But this one got me lost. The complexity of the question mingles with the chaos of the reality. Doing a PhD is a path to the self I want to be, who is intelligent, creative and can create anything she wants to. The question should be thought in reverse order, i.e. from your final goal to the current decision. However, the answer should read in order. I realize that it is an optimization problem. The decision(becoming a phd) is the optimization solution to the target under constraint. Deep in my heart, my goal is
can learn and understand everything she wants, want to understand the essence of intelligence, want to create something meaning, useful and interesting. Create interactions that make people understand each other better, and connect deeply.
The path to my goal is RESEARCH. Doing research fits my philosophy of understanding the world. I admire scientific thinking, I appreciate knowledge, and I pursue creativity. Doing research is like finding a puzzle, and solve one piece.
Entering a PhD program and becoming a doctor is the must-go way to do research in academia. It’s not only a chance to learn and do research, but also a chance to connect and collaborate with other people with similar interest. It’s also a head-to-toe and inside-out training for an intelligent mind. Down to the ground, it’s a 4-5 years of time to explore freely.